At my age, I haven’t lived long enough to have any major regrets. There’s a few minor ones that I remember such as not attending a friend’s Bar Mitzvah or wishing that I actually stuck with that New Year’s resolution to lose weight. But for the most part, I’ve luckily been saved from any major self-induced heartbreak.
Right now however, I wish I would have written more often my entire lifetime.
If I chronicled my days in a journal when I was younger, perhaps I would have a better understanding of the person that I am right now. If I wrote poetry when I was younger, perhaps I’d have the ability to thoughtfully provoke life lessons in each thing I do and pair it with a clever metaphor.
Perhaps if I read and wrote more often, I’d be a more articulate person that wouldn’t be so damn lazy and occasionally look at writing assignment with disdain.
And maybe writing would become an easy rhythm and it would be easy to sit down with a blank Microsoft Word document staring blankly ahead of me and create content that would just be dashing and wonderful.
The title of this article before I published it on WordPress was documented as “FINISH THIS FOR ONCE.doc.” These threatening titles are a trend for my documents on my computer. I also have, “DON’T BE LAZY.doc” and the classy, “STOP STREAMING NETFLIX.doc.”
I mentioned to a family friend once that I felt guilty that I hadn’t blogged for a while. Her reply was simply, “Write when you feel inspired.”
That doesn’t cut it for me.
While for many, it can be a legitimate excuse, for me, it’s just that— An excuse. Thankfully, I’ve had many ideas. Shamefully, many of them don’t come into fruition because I just can’t bring myself to write. At night, I often worry that the ideas I have will drip out of my ear and on to my pillow, simply because I have not engaged in the act of producing and thoughtfully analyzing content for a while.
But even if there are no grand ideas, I believe people should still write. Perhaps that will be the biggest learning experience of them all: producing quality content when you know you have no idea what you’re doing whatsoever. It’s the challenge of coming up with something unique along with your ferocious combination of a lively vocabulary and some mean grammar.
And so with that, I have decided that for this school year, I will take my own advice and let go of the excuses. Even if something I write is complete and utter garbage, it is worth the challenge to have learned something and perhaps get those few perfectly articulated sentences.
I wish that I wrote more when I was younger. Well. There’s no better time than now to try and fix that.
And so I ask, is there anything that you wish you would have down when you were younger, and if so, what can you do now to try and achieve that past goal?